I am not a size 5, nor am I close to it. My hair isn’t thick and shiny like those on tv and skin is oily and dry. I bite my nails, so I can never keep them long nor polished. My teeth aren’t always white, some days I forget to brush as well as, I skip days without showering. I do not have long smooth legs, seeing as how I go days sometimes weeks without shaving them. I am a short, misunderstood female. My boobs aren’t perky and my butt is not toned. My skin is pasty, not tanned. I do not have the best personality nor the best sense of humor. I am normal, just your average girl but I am beautiful. Why? I am beautiful because I am me. I am beautiful because of my mind and my thoughts. I do not pretend to be someone else, I like being me. I am no model but I am beautiful. I am not a size 5, but I am perfect. I am perfect because I am me. And you are perfect because you are you. I don’t care if I have no idea who you are or what you do, but I just want to let you know that I love you. I love the person you are because, you are a person.
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Well everyone, it has been awhile since I created anything besides a myspace layout. I’ve bee awfully busy… 
okay, I am lying. I’ve just been really lazy. So, we finally moved into our apartment, everything is going great. Hmmm, sounds a little too good to be true huh? Yeah, something is going on with our lights at the moment but have no fear, I am praying that it all works out! 
Other than that, nothing has been really going on. Um, my puppy is getting so fat ! He’s so chubby, it’s so adorable! He’s finally gotten to the point where he barks at everything lol, although it is not a very loud bark. Oh and I will be adding little updates all over the site… so watch out. ^_^
One year today, I lost not only my best friend but my sister too. For those who do not know, last year I was in a horrible car accident with my sister, my husband, my best friend and her brother. Everyone made it out okay, maybe a few scratches here and there. Only one didn’t make it out and it was her… the best friend, Amber. She was the driver and she wasn’t wearing a seat belt, none of us were. She was thrown all over the car, they say she died instantly… which I don’t believe but that’s another whole story. Anyways… a year today, I lost my sister. I want to blog about her, because when she was alive I never told her how much I loved her. I never showed her, how much she really does mean to me. I was always the one who had to buck her on everything. We always argued and gave each other the silent treatment. Isn’t it funny? How the one who aggravates and pisses you off the most, are the ones who you miss the most when gone? No matter what though, no matter how often I wanted to stop being friends, we never did. She was always there, always to be the first one to hug me when I cried. She was always ready to cuss out anyone who hurt me . I remember many nights when we would just ride all over town, just listening to music and wondering what were going to do. We would stay out late, well early mornings. Just so we could say, hey… we stayed out and pissed off our parents lol. To have to realize she’s really gone, it’s so hard. So, have any of you, lost someone you were really close with? How did you get over it? Or even, how did you deal?
I never realized how one person could change who you are or the way you feel. Then again, I never thought I would experience it. Have you ever been in love? I’m not talking about the love you one week, next week you’ve moved on. I’m talking about the embarrassing type of love. The stay on the phone until 4am, cry your eyes out for just thinking of you two ending type of love. My Husband and I have been together for 3 years, thats it. After two years, we got married. We’ve had our ups and our really downs. There were times where I tought we weren’t going to make it, and times where I didn’t want us to make it. But then something happen, something that should’ve happened long ago. We faced reality and the truth was, we knew each other weren’t going anywhere. No matter what we put each other through, no matter how many fights and how many tears. We knew, that we were meant to be together. So, everytime we fight now, no matter how big or how small, we know… we aren’t going anywhere. So, lets fix it. Let’s just stop wasting time on something we know we’re going to fix later and forget about. I am in love with a man so stubborn, so annoying at times, but yet, he’s wonderful and perfect for me. The question I am asking is, have you ever been in love? To where, nothing matters… just you and that other person? Have you ever had, that real love, that you think or even know thats going to last forever.
I feel a lot better today about who I am and where I am going. These past couple of months I have been down and out, I just had to get over a couple of bumps in the road that’s all. I’ve been worrying about the negative events that occurred within the past few months, so I feel like I lost my way. I lost faith in the good and only believed the worse, well… I lost faith in God. I forgot to put it all in the Lord’s hands and leave it there. It doesn’t always have to be on my shoulders nor my Husbands. I realize that now, I’ve been so ungrateful. When I woke up, I thought of only the bad never the good that I have in my life. I have a very caring family, loving Husband and above all, I have God on my side. So, I decided to let it go, let God take it. I am better today, much better. From this day on, I will keep my head up and only think of the good. I will no longer let the bad bring me down because with God on my side, I cannot be pushed down.
On another note, I have a few minor updates. I changed some links around and the Owner’s page has more information about me, yay?